In 2009, I lost my Dad, the moment that sit on the first place for my most devastating moment in the life. The second place was when I had been rejected by my first love, followed by losing my cat in the third place. At that time, I was clueless, I had never experienced this kind of sadness –losing someone that I love, a real one, because I cannot see him again, forever. But the real pain was not that, since I am the only child, the situation when I saw my mom crying after losing her true love, really really broke my heart into pieces. To make it worse, it happened a week after Mom’s 40ish birthday. Since 2003, I had a long distance…